When the time and the fate have favored me, I was proudly sitting in the science class. I really had no idea about my future and I had no ambition at all. I wanted to be one of the top students in the class, that’s all but I didn’t ponder on where the science would lead me to in the future.
“I wanna become an Engineer or a Doctor.” I used to say when the curious friends and anticipated teachers ask me but I really didn’t mean it. Deep within my cerebrum, I used to think that I was not capable of becoming any of these two. Days passed hastily and I developed some interest in what I was telling.
As one must become only one, I decided to lose interest in mathematics and improve my knowledge in biology. It’s the starting point of my ambition.
“I like to become Doctor.” And yes! God again favored me. I got a scholarship to study medicine in Sri Lanka with some of the new faces. You never know how privileged you must have felt at the moment you were offered. Gradually the precious gemstone was no more to be seen and all that I could see were the dull pebbles on the shore.
In the society, medical students are highly respected. However, I personally would like to say that I lose self respect being a medical student. I become the cruel creature ever existed in the world. Here’s why?
“Why did I become the medical student? Instead, I must have gone to Engineering college.”
“What is the use of studying if it’s to be forgotten”, that’s when I forget the things that I have studied.
“It’s impossible for me to become a good doctor”, it’s when I lose self-esteem or when I feel irrelevant with my own ideas.
“Given a chance, I would give up this course and find another one which is much easier”, tremendously frustrated with some simple things on my way I utter those words even if I know it’s impossible to turn back.
And as if my friends are the disturbances, I didn’t want to stay with them. “I don’t wanna stay here anymore, I need a separate house.” I shifted to the new place away from their house but that doesn’t make me better at all.
Now that I am in the new house completely isolated, I feel differently. “Oh! It’s better to be with friends. Situation doesn’t become better at all even if am alone. Why did I come here”.
Nothing seems alright in my cerebral hemisphere. Before I do one thing, I always think it’s gonna be interesting. Moreover, my desire to do that particular thing becomes too immense to stop myself from doing it. However, once I have done them, I always regret for that. I could not understand whether it’s the life phenomenon or a punishment specifically for me.
Everything would just go in the same way hereafter too. Wanting to do followed by doing and finally regretting it, it’s inevitable and I must go with it. Life is full of unexpected events, right now I am aware that I am writing something that defame myself but it’s gonna be like this every time.
“Despite knowing that you are doing wrong, you still want to do that because that’s how you are designed”
As the Day walks through time, the night welcomes it
The sun rays fade away, the great lantern shines everywhere
The darker to the brighter, brighter to the brightest
Melodies flood in the city, noises trying to dominate
Trees flower yet no fruit would appear
A glimpse of light as the beauty magnifies on nature
The sky shines in the darkness of the night
It’s Vesak Poya, the light festival as commonly called.
Just included new members; many were already registered in the past.
A warm wishes to you all from the current Vice President Tshering Dendup of 2014/2015 batch. Following are the lists of DAHE registered students who are recently being registered in BSA University of Peradeniya. With prior information from you all, you are registered now. If you are left unregistered, please let me know immediately so that you will be registered very soon.
Please, kindly give me your CID no. if you think you are not registered. Thank you!
I was astonished by the bizarre beauty of landscape as I stepped out of the door early in the morning, that’s my first day out in Peradeniya; Kandy(Sri Lanka). There was no room for me to be sad. I was in the midst of a place with coconut, lemon, jackfruit, banana, guava, avocado and many more angiosperm trees and plants surrounding me along the roadside. As the undergraduate students of 2014 pass outs, seven of us were placed here in University of Peradeniya, Faculty of Medicine to study MBBS while some were sent to other University within Sri Lanka for the same reason.
Despite the places being beautiful and tranquil, monotonous moments crawled over me since six of them were also strangers yet to be together thereafter for five years. However, entertainment was in full swing and within no time, we were just the same species of fish in the same pond. It’s soon gonna be the college days but I expected it to be much more excruciating.
I was time and again taken back in time making me to ponder on it opmore and more. “Did you know that they have to sleep with the cadaver underneath their bed.” The air has conducted this statement several times through my auditory canals in the midst of conversations among people of different walks of life. Several times being heard repeatedly, I was always assured of who they are talking about. I was not intended to listen at all but by hook or crook, it is being heard. Future Doctors! They are talking about them.
It’s then time for me to wonder why people make things so complicated. The statement was a false exaggeration on medical students’ life. I was relieved to know the truth. No need to sleep with cadaver at all. First month of the course wasn’t really about biology or chemistry, memories of the recent past were brought back clearly by the session I went through with two hundred plus friends. English literature and language was there chasing me once again. I thought it was over in high school just before the college life but it was not. It continued! English session lasted for a month after which the most important part of my future responsibility had begun.
The flow was not up to my anticipation, there were always thick and thin or sixes and sevens. I battled hard almost bled to death trying to appear, feel, experience and confront the same situations like my friends. I would say they were also just having the same hassle in the midst of hustle and bustle. Trying to make every day a moment to laugh and smile, I found myself swimming peacefully in the pool of togetherness. One year of battle ended though without much exhaustion walking, laying, sitting, reading, writing and so on, indeed totally ordinary experience except that anatomy, biochemistry and physiology of human systems were thoroughly focused. Fortunately, I have passed the first year of MBBS course without any hindrance and hereafter I will let you know soon!