When the time and the fate have favored me, I was proudly sitting in the science class. I really had no idea about my future and I had no ambition at all. I wanted to be one of the top students in the class, that’s all but I didn’t ponder on where the science would lead me to in the future.
“I wanna become an Engineer or a Doctor.” I used to say when the curious friends and anticipated teachers ask me but I really didn’t mean it. Deep within my cerebrum, I used to think that I was not capable of becoming any of these two. Days passed hastily and I developed some interest in what I was telling.
As one must become only one, I decided to lose interest in mathematics and improve my knowledge in biology. It’s the starting point of my ambition.
“I like to become Doctor.” And yes! God again favored me. I got a scholarship to study medicine in Sri Lanka with some of the new faces. You never know how privileged you must have felt at the moment you were offered. Gradually the precious gemstone was no more to be seen and all that I could see were the dull pebbles on the shore.
In the society, medical students are highly respected. However, I personally would like to say that I lose self respect being a medical student. I become the cruel creature ever existed in the world. Here’s why?
“Why did I become the medical student? Instead, I must have gone to Engineering college.”
“What is the use of studying if it’s to be forgotten”, that’s when I forget the things that I have studied.
“It’s impossible for me to become a good doctor”, it’s when I lose self-esteem or when I feel irrelevant with my own ideas.
“Given a chance, I would give up this course and find another one which is much easier”, tremendously frustrated with some simple things on my way I utter those words even if I know it’s impossible to turn back.
And as if my friends are the disturbances, I didn’t want to stay with them. “I don’t wanna stay here anymore, I need a separate house.” I shifted to the new place away from their house but that doesn’t make me better at all.
Now that I am in the new house completely isolated, I feel differently. “Oh! It’s better to be with friends. Situation doesn’t become better at all even if am alone. Why did I come here”.
Nothing seems alright in my cerebral hemisphere. Before I do one thing, I always think it’s gonna be interesting. Moreover, my desire to do that particular thing becomes too immense to stop myself from doing it. However, once I have done them, I always regret for that. I could not understand whether it’s the life phenomenon or a punishment specifically for me.
Everything would just go in the same way hereafter too. Wanting to do followed by doing and finally regretting it, it’s inevitable and I must go with it. Life is full of unexpected events, right now I am aware that I am writing something that defame myself but it’s gonna be like this every time.
“Despite knowing that you are doing wrong, you still want to do that because that’s how you are designed”
The world so high and complicated
The Places uncommonly unique
The infrastructures marvelously designed
The creatures enthusiastically gathered
And I the Chief, foolishly mesmerized!
There lies a land of thunder dragon in the Himalayas
Popular and pristine, it’s the beautiful Bhutan 🇧🇹
Under the roaring blessing of the thunder dragon
I, Tshering Dendup, was born to a humble mom
My father retired the world welcoming his poor son
As weakness lies in the absence of powerful man
I missed the blankets of love and care that everyone shall receive from mom
Fortunate I was then to be brought up in new home
By an amazing couple I shall consider my parents at the moment
Grown up in their hearts, I made them smile most of the time
I became the man of simplicity and servant of my words
Perseverance I carried as a young man never led me down
Never would I say that I am the best but I am not the worst too
I have eaten an apple and didn’t throw away the seeds
So I shall pluck the apples from a tree one day
I am a student, an undergraduate scholar of medical course
Deeply I shall hope for the better friuts in my future with this apple tree
My feelings shall remain my priority and accept them eagerly
My brain may nurture my apple tree with determination
While my heart has its trachycardia for love
She has beauty of everything she has got I believed now
Fragrance of not just the love but also the strong faith she possesses
She may be mine but she must be my destination of love
Sangay Wangmo, her name I am pleased to utter and smile with
Like me, she lives with trachycardia of love between us
My fortune of love She shall be; you should pray for me
People enjoy with their hobbies, I live carving my hobbies
If I do one thing, that’s my hobby you should consider
Its omnipresence keeps me better all time
It’s in the air, on the ground, along the roadside, beneath the water
Believe me, it can be in the jeopardized site
Strong enough as a servant of my words, I do everything wholeheartedly
I love writing, gaming, swimming, cycling, singing and the list shall go on
Bless me God! I shall persevere to be a better being.